Life Realizations #1

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I think almost 2 years ago, I was at the lowest point in my life – physically and emotionally. I felt at my weakest. A lot of questions that I think I know but refuse to answer. I do not usually talk it out with friends and family, but to myself. I even hated myself for being myself. I would even ask why I was doing what I’m doing or not doing what I’m supposed to be doing.

And then I just decide to fix myself little by little. First, I have to accept my current state (physically and emotionally). Then, I started to bring my stable self back – the state before I got to my lowest, meaning the usual self (both negative and positive).

Once I got back, I started to set my mind to go out of my comfort zone. I have tried things that I never imagined to be doing. It was hard and seems like I am just faking it. Until now, I can say I’m not really at the state that I want to be but going out of my comfort zone made my world bigger. It gave me better and creative ideas, see the bigger picture and realize things deeper than my usual thoughts. It also made me braver to do more things than I thought I can handle.

Right now, I am in the point in my life that I see it running so fast leaving me with so short of a time for all the ideas that I wasn’t able to bring to life yet. I am making my nights into days so I can put those to action. And up to this day, I am just starting. I am praying and thinking so hard to have longer time because I want to do more and I want to see more.

My kids, day by day, they are growing so fast. And as I cannot be with them every minute, I felt like I am losing an important part of me. It is not the life that I wanted so I am trying so hard to change its course. I wanted to be with them and see them grow.

They are my “whys” that I am doing what I am doing. I have never been this determined all my life. Because just like in a song, I only have one shot, I do not want to miss the chance as this opportunity comes once in a lifetime. And, I only have one life.


TWWAGM InstaFinds Blog Series #1: Gawa ni Femi


To plant a garden is to believe in tomorrow. ~ Audrey Hepburn

I am a self-confessed plant lover. I have an 8 to 5 to job during weekdays but gardening is one of my me-time during the weekends. I love to make our plants multiply by planting at least three pieces of stem cuttings together in one hole. Or, plant the seeds taken when I am cutting fruits and vegetables.

I cannot remember that I made a plant grow and live when I was younger. I think I haven’t just invested enough time to do so. But within the past 4 years, I was able to make plants grow intentionally and unintentionally (seeds thrown but not sown grew unexpectedly).

I just love how the presence of a plant refreshes any corner of the house. So when I saw the Instagram account Gawa ni Femi , the plants look lovelier than ever!

Gawa ni Femi is a Filipino phrase. Gawa means made, ni means by and Femi is a name of a girl so it means Made by Femi. I haven’t purchased any of Femi’s creations yet since those are easily got sold seconds after posting in Instagram. But I can’t help to admire her creativity and talent in hand-painting cute pots where a small plant can fit in.

Hope I can acquire one of her pots someday, I need to be more alert when she is going to post in Instagram haha. Below are just some of her masterpieces. You can visit her Instagram account here to see more. Enjoy!


One of Femi’s creations